is hard.

the person who i wrote 'amicus melior' for has been killed. he was hit by a bus while riding his bike.

he was my best friend. i love him with every single piece of my heart.

i'm just.. so lost..

it's become difficult to place the words that i am looking for on paper. is this maturity?

i
don't
want
to
lose
anybody
important
to
me.

): but i don't know what to do. maybe i am overreacting. maybe new beginnings will change things. i hope i hope i hope i hope i hope.

please?